Char's Fitness Weblog

Goals Progress Saturday May 10

charslife — Sat, 10 May 2008 22:56:59 +0000

Begin running training by following the five week pre-training schedule on Cool Runnings program for the half marathon.

I started today with the pre-training week’s schedule by running 3.5 miles. I’m so out of shape I may have to follow this for about three weeks (I’m estimating) before I can take on the running schedule. It felt really good to run today. It took me 48 minutes 30 seconds.

Return to tracking what I eat.

Started today. I’m using a little notebook and handwriting which has worked well for me in the past. Makes the process simple simple for me.

Lose 4 pounds

I feel good. Action is empowering.

Moving forward

charslife — Sat, 10 May 2008 14:12:24 +0000

I’m back. In the last three weeks I ate and over ate. Walked for miles every day. Saw gorgeous buildings and sculptures and alleys and restaurants and cafes and pubs. I didn’t make lists of anything: not what I ate or burned or thought. That was fabulous.

Coming back and looking at my blog, as I move forward, it feels so unfocused and scattered and more knotted up than it needs to be. Like me. My goals are clear. The path to them is simple.

I want to be on this path because it feels so good. It feels good to take care of me. To look good. Be fit. Feel strong. Confident. To rely on myself.

May’s goals are:

Begin running training by following the five week pre-training schedule on Cool Runnings program for the half marathon.

Return to tracking what I eat.

Lose 4 pounds

Week in Review

charslife — Sat, 12 Apr 2008 14:04:37 +0000

My goals were:

Track. Wow, I tracked everyday this week!

Exercise at least four times. I stretched and or walked five times.

Grocery shop and plan meals for the week. Yes.

Eat healthy dinners at home at least 5 times this week. Ate at home four times and skipped dinner once. Does that count? : )

Keep blogging & connecting with myself. I did five days this week. Yeah!

Good week in baby steps…

Valria suggested I go back and look at my journaling from when I trained for my first triathlon. Paradoxically (or maybe not) I didn’t keep a journal. I only kept an exercise log. I wasn’t in my head. I was clear on my goals and loved working towards them. I wasn’t conflicted or confused or sending myself double messages. Every day I went about my business working out, eating right, feeling confident and happy.

I get into trouble when love is in the mix. Learning how to be true to myself while loving someone else. All the times in my life when I have been confused, conflicted, hurt and not living in alignment with myself, in all those cases, it had to do with working out love issues.

So now I’m in a relationship and I don’t want to have to go through life either pursuing my dreams or love. I am going to learn how to have it all. That’s my goal.

Tuesday Dave & I leave for Europe for three weeks. What will my goals be during those weeks?

To enjoy life. To eat well, sleep deeply, photograph and sketch, have laughter and sex in foreign countries, walk the cobblestone streets of London, Verona, Venice, Florence and Rome, see family, take it all in and let go of the daily checklists, food tracking, head dialogues.

When I get home, I will be ready to be true to myself and be in a relationship.

One of those posts

charslife — Fri, 11 Apr 2008 00:22:28 +0000

I am concerned about how fat I’m feeling. It’s not just in my head either. My clothes are tight, I’m uncomfortable, I’m lethargic, quietly sad. All the signs are there. I’m packing on the weight and not treating myself well. Ironically I think about my weight, my fitness, food and exercise all the time. I’m just not doing anything about it, other than over-eating, wearing the same outfits ad nauseum, feeling dumpy.

I’m putting a lot of stock in turning things around after my trip. No more excuses. I’ll have my new membership at the gym a few blocks from Dave’s and I’ll need a serious overhaul in how I eat. All these food court lunches and overeating evenings are seriously depressing me.

So I overate at lunch and have been feeling bloated ever since. Of course I still maganed to eat a sugar cookie for a snack a few hours later and still feel so full.

What is it about this feeling that brings me back here time and again? It’s familiar and sad and so cumbersome. And I feel the happy fit lively girl in me getting quieter and sadder. I need to shake off these blues, these pounds and these tired clothes!

April 5 - 11

charslife — Sun, 06 Apr 2008 03:37:31 +0000

Friday

Track. Done.

Exercise at least four times. Stretched & walked.