Char’s Fitness Weblog

How does the life I want look and feel?

I wake up feeling thin and sexy. I get up out of bed energetic and happy and bounce into my workout gear. I stretch for half an hour, make the bed, have a cup of coffee on the balcony with Dave and head to the gym. I run a satisfying six miles, get home, shower and get dressed. Everything fits well, looks great, comfortable, sexy.

I get to work on time, eat a healthy breakfast at my desk. Bagel, coffee. Later fresh fruit. At lunch I have a salad and read a book I’m really enjoying. Work is busy but satisfying. We have some laughs, get a lot done, get out on time.

On my way home I stop off at Greenlake to walk around one or two laps. Sometimes with friends, sometimes alone, sometimes I walk Lila instead.

Dave and I have a healthy dinner, grilling fish and veggies and eating fresh strawberries (like last night). I am happy, content, energetic, flowing.

I take good care of myself and others. I’m confident and fit and patient and loving.

Life feels full and good.

Now that I’m back, it’s time to get back into my running routine. So this morning, at 5am, I laid in bed with Dave and Lucky, debating in my head: I need to get up, it feels so good to be in bed, I can go to the gym this evening, I probably won’t, I should focus on my eating for a while instead of exercise, blah blah blah. And then, and this is what counts, I got up. I stretched and I went to the gym. Immediately I was happy to be there. I had it to myself initially. I ran 4.67 miles in 60 minutes. I felt great during the run, after the run, and now, sitting at my desk at work.

That debate that goes on in my head, that conversation that starts me down the path of self-doubts and inaction, that’s my inner critic, the part of me that thinks I should lay low in life, not reach for too much. I can thank her for sharing and for trying to help out and hopefully she’ll finally realize that her way is the lesser way. Hopefully she will quiet down when she realizes that it always feels good to workout, believe in myself, reach for a good life.

Begin running training by following the five week pre-training schedule on Cool Runnings program for the half marathon. 

I started today with the pre-training week’s schedule by running 3.5 miles. I’m so out of shape I may have to follow this for about three weeks (I’m estimating) before I can take on the running schedule. It felt really good to run today. It took me 48 minutes 30 seconds.

Return to tracking what I eat.

Started today. I’m using a little notebook and handwriting which has worked well for me in the past. Makes the process simple simple for me.

Lose 4 pounds

I feel good. Action is empowering.

I’m back. In the last three weeks I ate and over ate. Walked for miles every day. Saw gorgeous buildings and sculptures and alleys and restaurants and cafes and pubs. I didn’t make lists of anything: not what I ate or burned or thought. That was fabulous. 

Coming back and looking at my blog, as I move forward, it feels so unfocused and scattered and more knotted up than it needs to be. Like me. My goals are clear. The path to them is simple. 

I want to be on this path because it feels so good. It feels good to take care of me. To look good. Be fit. Feel strong. Confident. To rely on myself.

May’s goals are:

Begin running training by following the five week pre-training schedule on Cool Runnings program for the half marathon. 

Return to tracking what I eat.

Lose 4 pounds