My goals were:
Track. Wow, I tracked everyday this week!
Exercise at least four times. I stretched and or walked five times.
Grocery shop and plan meals for the week. Yes.
Eat healthy dinners at home at least 5 times this week. Ate at home four times and skipped dinner once. Does that count? : )
Keep blogging & connecting with myself. I did five days this week. Yeah!
Good week in baby steps…
Valria suggested I go back and look at my journaling from when I trained for my first triathlon. Paradoxically (or maybe not) I didn’t keep a journal. I only kept an exercise log. I wasn’t in my head. I was clear on my goals and loved working towards them. I wasn’t conflicted or confused or sending myself double messages. Every day I went about my business working out, eating right, feeling confident and happy.
I get into trouble when love is in the mix. Learning how to be true to myself while loving someone else. All the times in my life when I have been confused, conflicted, hurt and not living in alignment with myself, in all those cases, it had to do with working out love issues.
So now I’m in a relationship and I don’t want to have to go through life either pursuing my dreams or love. I am going to learn how to have it all. That’s my goal.
Tuesday Dave & I leave for Europe for three weeks. What will my goals be during those weeks?
To enjoy life. To eat well, sleep deeply, photograph and sketch, have laughter and sex in foreign countries, walk the cobblestone streets of London, Verona, Venice, Florence and Rome, see family, take it all in and let go of the daily checklists, food tracking, head dialogues.
When I get home, I will be ready to be true to myself and be in a relationship.
