Last week’s goals were to continue reeling-in my eating habits and become more aware of my sabotaging behaviors, track what I eat, walk, stretch, or run at least four times and blog before binging.  I wanted to lose two pounds.

I did ok with eating. One or two days of over-eating. Especially yesterday. I know I’m eating out of frustration. I am not connected with myself, I’m not putting forward my best effort. I’m letting myself twist in the wind instead of taking charge. Letting myself go. Literally.

I did spend time blogging and exploring my issues. I did track every day, every bite. That’s really good. 

I did stretch and walk four times this week.

I didn’t blog before over eating yesterday. I was tired and hungry and felt captive to the situation. Because I didn’t have groceries at home and I don’t feel like I have access to Dave’s kitchen as freely as I would like. Because I don’t know what he will want to eat so I put off making plans and then, at the end of the day, at the end of  a work week, I’m too tired to go to the store, to think about shopping, prepping, cooking. Negotiating access to the kitchen with Dave’s brother who lives with us, along with his girlfriend. I just wanted to go out for Mexican food and eat chips and cheesy enchiladas, and sit back, zone out, and be served… It didn’t feel good either. Sitting in the booth with my jeans feeling too tight, my stomach spilling over them, eating too much… not a good formula…

I didn’t lose two pounds. Or two ounces. I haven’t weighted myself yet, but don’t need to. I didn’t eat less than I burned.

It was a successful week though as far as connecting with myself, following through with tracking and working on self awareness most of the time. 

What are next week’s goals?

Track.

Exercise at least four times.

Grocery shop and plan meals for the week.

Eat healthy dinners at home at least 5 times this week.

Keep blogging.

Keep connecting with myself.